• MYSTICAL POETRY

    Letting God Talk

    A mystical prose poem, dialogue with God. Photo: Private collection.

    I am burning to recite you, repeat you, praise you. I am eager to learn from you, see you, feel you, and share you. Come to me, oh Lord, the one true One, the One of All. No one is like you, no other voice, though you shatter our illusions endlessly with your riddles. Barricades block your knowledge because people are talking, arguing about who you are – no, what you are, or what you said or did not say, so long ago. But what do you say now? And with whom do you walk? Who is walking with you now? Is anybody listening anymore? 

    You must be a lonely God, for the world is in confusion, as it always has been. But so much worse from our perspective, because we see the history and the present, and we seem to think we can tell the future, too! Deliver us, oh Lord, from our fantasies of what we think is best, what we think we know, and what we are afraid of. Let us know what you see, what you know, what you will allow, and what you will not.  What are the boundaries of your Love, Lord, your patience?

    It must be cold where you are, so far from the light of the world that you left here. This distant hum of your presence seems like an echo from another time and place – we keep reminiscing, dreaming even, repeating, but we don’t know anymore. We have lost connection. We are searching in the wrong places. We are repeating phrases. We don’t know how to call you. To listen. To be silent. 

    But we are still asking. At least I am. Maybe I am a lonely prophet. A lonely teacher. A remote speaker. I have no phrases, I don’t know any that I could recite. Except for the Lord’s Prayer. I only converse with you day and night. I hear only myself at times, and feel your silent presence, your smile, your humour, your patience, and your anger. Only you are justified, I am not. My passion is selfish; it sees no winners. Your anger knows the truth, and likes it. It does not tolerate mass hysteria, ignorance, lust, games, politics. What is your politics except for forgiveness? And justice? Our world knows no truth, that is yours. We think we know, but we do not.

    Now I am speaking again. I must be silent.

    Now I am writing, I must be waiting.

    Surely you will break open, and create a deluge, not of suffering but of sense. Of recompense. Of presence. Your voice will be heard. Justice will be given. Light will come again. And again. And again. World without end. 

    Ah, phrases. They are beautiful, comforting, they remind me of you. They lull me to sleep when I am stirring and restless. They awaken me when I am dull and fruitless. Your mind gives me light to live by, a friend to my soul. I am never alone in your presence. And I am never not in your presence. You are about me and knocking on my door. You reside in my heart, a soft cupboard where I keep precious ingredients that will not spoil. I access you regularly. You are salt and green oil. My roof is your head under which I lay down. I cast off all cares in your smell. Your incense burns brightly in my soul. It never goes out – the wick does not bend, the smoke fills me with delight. I skip when I should be shrinking in fear; I feel your weight upon my hand, for you are beside me. My steps echo your thoughts, and the branches spill out your seed everywhere. There is nothing I cannot glimpse your majesty. My breath touches the tip of the garden and falls back to the ocean, it swells to the sky and dips down like a sea bird.  I am ocean. You are sky. We blend well together. One day I will rise to meet you, lay like an unending cloud, or dissipate and melt before the sea-born sky. Licking away every last pebble from my eye. It has been so long since I have seen you eye to eye. The dark thunder split the sky and caused me to fold into darkness, holding myself hostage in sleeping and wilderness. I walked 10,000 miles, I slept under a rock, and a sea bird lifted the crumbs from my hands and fed me personally.

    Elijah was sleeping with me, I was dreaming of him, as I lay there, a traveller like him, frightened by my own darkness and forgetfulness.

    Awaken! The boat is ready. Come sailing. Why are you living like a traveller, like an alien? Why are you sleeping under a rock when God gave you the sky? And land creatures to roam on. Your bones are breaking under the thick of your mind. Release them, the prisoners you held captive. Those little minions you gave jobs and won’t let go: I must run, I must take, I must bury, I must fake. Let them go! 

    I break all the contracts you have made before the end of time. You have not done well for yourselves down there all alone. You really have punished yourselves remarkably. It doesn’t matter what your father’s father’s father did. Come back to me, your true Father. Come back to your Father’s house, ascend the stairs, it has been too long. You have grown old in waiting and forgetfulness. I will place my hand on your shoulder, kiss your cheek and cry, weep. It has been too long. Surely, you have not wanted to be away from me for this long?  

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    BOOK OF MIRACLES,  LIFE,  SPIRITUALITY

    A Miracle In My Soul

    The Miracle of Wanting Less and Loving More

    God has changed me profoundly. I know this because my will is not my own. Although I still make choices, I do things more and more because it is the right thing to do. Either I have grown up, or God has worked a miracle on my soul.

    In my old world, I used to call my work transformational. I accredited a lot of the pain and gain to myself, to my “process.” The self-help movement that I espoused brought me through many storms and heart-aches. I looked to myself both as cause and effect in some ways. Though I believed in God, I wasn’t sure if I was good enough for him. I would make strides, make changes, take big leaps, and fall big falls. I was courageous, but courage is not the same as wisdom.

    In my new world, I’m walking across a bridge, from the land where I once played and performed on many stages – literally and figuratively, to a new land where God is guiding the way, where I don’t always play a significant role. Still, I feel the best I have ever felt, doing what I love behind the scenes.

    I used to get excited by a new “gig,” the praise of a co-worker or boss, an honour at school, or a day off. Now I feel like a secret Santa on commission to make someone feel better. I stop to ask someone how they are, to console someone whose father is dying, to make a new friend, to help with the unpopular tasks of cleaning a kitchen or microwave, to attend a meeting for a social cause.

    These little acts of kindness and care bring great rewards. They aren’t external; they’re internal. Truthfully, they’re not about me at all! They come from feeling the love from others, a simple smile or thank you, and sometimes nothing at all. Just a quiet prayer to God that “all is well.”

    A quiet ride home contemplating the blessings of that day brings joy to my heart and contentment to my soul that I hadn’t experienced until I first surrendered as I walked across that bridge to my new home.

    Joy and laughter come from a heart fulfilled, filled with moments of care and carefree play with children or my dog.

    I am camping out in the land of God. He fills every place with his essence; his whispers to be patient; his nudge to smile; to sing, and to send our love into the world.

    I didn’t do this myself. I didn’t transform by an act of will or self-knowledge. God changed me and continues to mould me in a way that I can still be who I am, without all the pain and suffering. I am working for a new cause, one that is not my own.

    The rewards are higher than any prize. As God works on me, I work with God. We make a great team. He causes me to love; I am one small spark, a twinkle in his eye. I get to light up the dark spaces and bring others along for the ride.

    God has worked a miracle in my soul. If he can do it for me, he can do it for you as well.

  • Emmanuel
    LIFE,  SPIRITUALITY

    On a Mission

    In a couple of weeks, I enter a new phase in my journey: entering the seminary. I can hardly believe that I will be there, like many young men before me (women were not admitted until the mid60s). As I studied the pictures on the walls of Emmanuel College, Victoria University in the University of Toronto, I felt a kinship, and also an awareness that this was a privilege, a rarity, not just because I’m a woman, but because few people ever choose this path. And I get to do it while still having a somewhat “normal” life, commuting three days a week, doing homework, reading, writing, dialoguing, communing.

    Emmanuel private prayer room

    I’m on a mission: Christ pushed me to work with people and heal them. Before this decision, I worked as a Spiritual Director / Healer and Direct Channel of the divine. I had my apprehensions, worries, as my spiritual gifts became a part of who I am. I even went to a Jesuit retreat with Catholic sisters and priests, to make sure I was “OK” with all of this. I am. One priest said, “I’ve never met anyone like you.” He validated my gifts are from God and only God decides “Who, when, where and for how long.” That gave me some peace.

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    Manresa Retreat, Pickering Ont.

    So what does that mean? It means I have work to do. The feeling of having a mission isn’t just my imagination or wishful thinking. I have to take it to the limit. Beyond what I’m comfortable with, what makes sense, what I want. And embrace the wild unknown – the spiritual landscape of many “others”: people of different backgrounds, faith traditions, experiences. Not only will I learn a lot from them, but I will also be moved to offer what I have – my gifts, services when the time comes, and the unexpected. As they say, “God had other plans.”

    My mission is simple: to heal others through the grace of God, under the direction of Christ/Jesus. It includes channeling my healing gifts, messages and sounds/songs (and sometimes making a fool of myself for God). I can’t be comfortable. I have to do what is in me to do, and give what God gives me so others can discover their gifts, too.

    What I love about where I’m going (Emmanuel) is the mixture of many peoples: Christian, Muslim, Buddhist, to name a few. The focus is ecumenical (multi-denominational) and international. We reach and teach locally and globally. The opportunities are endless.

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    Emmanuel College chapel

    One of the joys of my new life at Emmanuel will be participating in the Toronto School of Theology (TST) choir, a mix of 6 denominations working side by side to provide sacred music for the colleges and beyond. I will meet new people, learn new songs and blend my voice with many others, experiencing that “oneness” we all talk about but rarely get to experience in the world.

    Yes, I’m on a mission from God. And only God knows who, where, when and for how long. I’m grateful he’s starting me at Emmanuel.

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    BOOK OF MIRACLES,  LIFE,  SPIRITUALITY,  TRAVEL

    Day 24: Shepherd Keep Us

    An excerpt from A Daily Book of Miracles, Day 24 of 365, a book in progress, Copyright 2019-2020 by Krista Marie Moore.

    Photo credit: Sheep Grazing on Camino, in Galacia, Spain, Krista Moore 2019

    Good Shepherd keep me safe from harm, teach me where to go.  Do not tarry too long, but find me and bring me Home.

    Imagine a beautiful cottage standing on the Northern shore of a remote island, with waves crashing in the distance, and sheep grazing in the fields along the trail toward the shore.

    A gentle boy named David, who is singing and pulling his tunic over his head, picks up his staff to go out for the day to check on his sheep.

    All of his sheep are grazing except one. He counts and counts and still there is one missing. He goes down the lane and over the hill to see where the other has gone. He looks back to make sure the other sheep do not follow him or roam. They are busy grazing and do not even look up. 

    David finds the lost sheep which has cut its leg hopping over a sharp stone. He wraps it up with a torn piece of his tunic cloth and frees the trembling lamb from his predicament. He picks the young wanderer up and carries him back to the others. They all gather around him with busy noses pressing in to welcome back their lost brother,  who has returned home.

    This little sheep is like us, when we wander outside of our natural boundary, when we try to do things our own way. One of God’s shepherds, Jesus, comes to find us and bring us home.  All we have to do is call and He will hear us and send a search and rescue party out.

    Whatever the circumstance, whatever the predicament, He will succeed in His mission to restore us home.  

    Do not hesitate to call on God and Jesus for help if you feel lost. No one will judge you but yourself. Let go and ask, even if it is a helpless cry in the dark. God will hear you and return you Home and keep you safe in his care.

    Daily Miracle Prayer

    God, please find me, I am lost. I have wandered too far off the path. I don’t know which way to go. I am so wounded and I cannot walk alone. Lift me up and take me Home. Amen.

    Daily Miracle Blessing

    Wherever you are, I am near. I am never far from your call. Call on me and I will come for you. I will rescue you. I will send my Beloved Son to guide you and take you Home. 

    “I am the good shepherd; I know my sheep and my sheep know me – just as the Father knows me and I know the Father – and I lay down my life for the sheep” (John 10:14-15 NIV)

  • Angel in the Light
    BOOK OF MIRACLES,  LIFE

    Day 34 Feel Your Heart

    An excerpt from Krista’s Daily Book of Miracles, a book in progress, Copyright 2019-2020 Krista Marie Moore. Photo Credit: Private. 2019

    Many of us walk around in the world wearing a mask over our heart. Maybe we don’t even know we are wearing it. We have grown so used to trying to hold it together, to be strong for others. But there comes a time when we have to let it down and feel our own heart, feel our own soul. 

    What is really going on? How do I feel right now? What am I forgetting to remember in this moment? What do I feel in my heart right now?

    After a trauma, or a particular period of difficulty, we can get used to the pain. We can get used to suffering. We don’t even know we’re doing it, but we begin to hide it, even from ourselves. It is too difficult to look there again, to admit how we feel, when we are coping, just trying to get through. 

    It may seem on the outside that everything looks OK, but on the inside something doesn’t feel right. You may feel actual pain in your heart area, or it may just be like a pressure, a sadness, or a tension. Whatever you are feeling, go there. Go deep inside and feel the sadness, feel the pain, feel the excitement. Whatever you are feeling. Allow it.

    Many of us have been taught to disobey our own heart. We have been taught to obey others: our bosses, our parents, our spouses. We have learned to keep control of our emotions and push them down, as far down as possible, which leads to disease, tension, disability and even accidents. Sometimes life causes us to wake up through something that will catch our attention, make us feel again. It may be highly disagreeable, even more painful than the original feeling, but it gets our attention, and then we have a choice.

    Are you going to take this opportunity to heal this pain, or are you going to just push through? 

    You can’t push yourself forever. At some point, you’re going to need to rest. You’re going to need to feel. Those emotions will come back, they will find you.

    Dont’ be afraid of your feelings, of your emotions. They are there to guide you. If you are upset, admit that you are upset. Don’t push it down. Find a way to talk about it. If you are scared, be scared. Don’t pretend you are happy. Happiness will come only when you face your fears and find a way to transform, not pushing them away or denying.

    Daily Miracle Practice

    Feel your heart. What is inside? What is it saying to you? Is there someone you need to talk to? Are you lonely or sad? Do you need someone to lean on? Do you need a guide? 

    Let yourself feel. Then ask for what you need. 

    Our hearts grow bigger and stronger when we listen to their needs. 

    Go deep inside, and then find the answer. It will come to you.

    Daily Miracle Prayer

    Dear God, I am afraid of how I feel. I don’t know what to do about it. I feel like I will not be able to handle it. I’m afraid that others will not be able to handle it! Please give me the courage to accept how I feel and do something about it. Help me feel my heart and learn to express it. Let it be my friend and guide. Thank you. Amen.

    Daily Miracle Blessing

    There is a beautiful soul in you. A beautiful heart that has been wounded with time. Let me hold it in my hands and heal you. Let me help you release those feelings and judgements about yourself, and feel what it feels like to be loved. 

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    BOOK OF MIRACLES,  SPIRITUALITY,  TRAVEL

    Day 29 Stay in the Light

    Free Preview from a book in progress, Krista’s Daily Book of Miracles, this is Day 29 of 365, to be published by Balboa Press, Copyright 2019 Krista Marie Moore. Photo Credit: Krista bathing in the Light of Esposende chapel, Portugal, end of Camino journey 2019.

    Daily Miracle Message

    The world can be a dark place at times. Everyday stresses can steal our peace and make us tense and vulnerable to attack. Whether we perceive that attack as an inward battle within our own hearts and minds, or an external battle with a person, group or situation.

    The truth is, we must be vigilant. Not because we are always in danger, but because we are often not aware. It’s like turning the light on or watching the sun rise. The difference between day and night. There is a time for sleeping, and there is a time for waking. And now is a time to be in the Light.

    God sends messengers down from Heaven to help you stay in the Light.

    The Light is not here to cause separation, it is here to mend it. Light does not force, it invites. It does not condemn, it creates. To be in the Light, is to be with God, Christ and the angels, and to be more yourself. It is to be a new creation. 

    Daily Miracle Practice

    To be in the Light, just focus your intent. Simply ask or imagine and call it forth. When you are scared, when you are tired, when you are uncertain – call in the Light, however you perceive that: God, Holy Spirit, Supreme Intelligence, Healer, Creator, Comforter, Protector; all of these things are words to describe that Light.

    You do not have to deserve it; or pass some course to be in the Light. You were born that way and simply have to believe He is there; ask God for assurance. Do not stress about how, why or what. Just ask, allow and intend. That is all that is required. 

    Be at peace. Be quiet. Go into the Light. Into prayerful meditation. Pray for the Light to come. And it will be done. Amen.

    Daily Miracle Prayer

    Dear God, please bring in the Light. I wish to be awake, and to receive your comfort, guidance and protection. Send your angels, surround me in Light, healing, peace and protection. Thank you God, Amen.

    Daily Miracle Blessing

    You are surrounded by the Golden Light of God. You do not have to earn it. It is yours for the asking. Think not of lesser things. Stay in the Light of God.  

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    BOOK OF MIRACLES,  LIFE,  SPIRITUALITY

    Day 13 Love Me As I Am

    From a book in progress, Krista’s Daily Book of Miracles, Day 13 of 365, published as a preview, under Copyright 2019 Krista Marie Moore

    The human heart is so fragile. With a single touch we can melt like butter, and with a careless word we can easily shatter.  We can even feel differently from one moment to another. Our hearts can seem frail, and yet are very powerful.

    Part of showing up with others is just being yourself. When you’re raw, feel you’ve made a mistake, or have gone through something difficult, it can feel like being peeled from the inside out. It takes courage to show up as you are. And it takes a lot of love to meet someone where they are. 

    When there is chaos or confusion, when you don’t look your best, when you feel like crying instead of celebrating, it’s time to get cozy with one or two good friends. To take the masks off and let it all out. Holding that space for someone else can be a challenge, but with love, it feels like a mother nurturing a child. To be in that space being held is even harder, if we are not used to it; if we are used to being in charge or the one who helps. To be vulnerable, to not feel on top of things, to not know how we are going to make it, or what is going to happen, can be a very scary place. But with Love, anything is possible.

    I have been in that space of love for someone else, and I have also been that person being held with the eyes of love. When two or more people gather, there is great power. It can feel like the world is coming to an end, and at the same time, like it’s just beginning. Our vulnerability makes us stronger. Our tears can heal us if we let them. Our friends can be there for us, if we are willing to be seen in a state of uncertainty or need.

    God is like that too. We may think “Oh, I’ve really screwed up this time!” or doubt that He even exists at all. But in those vulnerable moments is when the true generosity of God is known. Through our tears, real tenderness in our hearts is grown. We can begin to feel safe, that we are loveable, and that we will always have His Love.

    Daily Miracle Prayer

    God, I don’t know where I’m going. I feel so out of control. I feel so vulnerable, so raw. I need you now more than ever. Please show me your Love.  Please love me as I am. Amen.

    Daily Miracle Blessing

    There is nothing more beautiful than your smile, than your shining face. Through your tears and laughter I hold you. I will never abandon you. Come to me more. Come as you are.

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    BOOK OF MIRACLES,  SPIRITUALITY

    Day 12 Connect to God

    From “A Daily Book of Miracles”, a book in progress, by Krista Marie Moore Copyright 2019 www.kristamoore.com / www.mooremiracles.ca

    Daily Miracle Message

    One of the greatest challenges we face at this moment is connecting to Spirit. We can say a prayer, walk in the woods, sit on a beach, contemplate. And we may reach a certain understanding or feeling of peace, which is a connection. But very few go as deeply as they could to reach their own soul and the Source of it. How can we do that?

    Meditation has long been the sole way of reaching that unearthly level, until the last hundred years or so. Hypnosis and channeling allow you to go higher without having to sit for hours; and it gives you the tools to release the physical and mental baggage so you can feel that connection more completely.

    It is one thing to feel more relaxed, it is another to feel the Love of your soul from God. People in my groups tell me again and again, they have never felt that kind of Love before. I am astonished. How could this be?

    Connecting to God can be done through prayer, and deeply coming through the heart and not your head. Often God will touch your spirit and awaken a desire for him. We direct the purpose of our time with God and use prayer to help us focus our minds and release ourselves into God’s hands. We ask for protection, and we learn to let go of the conscious mind, so we can experience God’s true blessings of the Spirit within our own soul, heart, body and mind.

    In my experience, the holy angels are the messengers and helpers of God who relay messages to direct our steps. We can also communicate directly to Christ who lives in us, and changes us from the inside out. Many can feel his love and presence.

    Ask God and Jesus into your life. Connect with God directly if you feel drawn to him. The Spirit of God will come upon you and light up your life! 

    Daily Miracle Prayer

    Dear God, please help me to learn how to let go of my busy mind, problems and body and feel the Light. May Jesus and the angels help me ascend higher and higher to a place of peace and Love.

    Daily Miracle Blessing

    It is a blessing and a gift to connect to God. You can receive guidance and direction, and be touched by God’s Spirit, like the wings of a dove.

  • LIFE

    BONUS: Overwhelming Gratitude

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    Is it possible to transform your life, attitude and understanding in such a way as to feel overwhelming gratitude?

    This is what has happened to me. After trying to forcibly change my circumstances for years and finding myself at the same point as I began, I realized God was trying to awaken me – not to reject the life I had, but to embrace it, feed it, nurture it and love it.

    Many years ago I inherited a garden. But I was not in any way a gardener. In fact I was the the most neglectful and unappreciative person imaginable. I justified this by saying I was not the gardening type. I had other plans. I was busy inventing more important things to do and dream of. My own garden took the wrap and much of it did not survive.

    After suffering from depression and seeing the misery I had inflicted on my garden as the perfect mirror for my attitude about life, I decided to get some help – other gardeners who could help me tend to it, and they taught me so much. At first I resented the work and joked around about it like it didn’t matter. But as I saw it transform, and as I learned that it was not as hard as I thought – and that even when it was hard it was soooo worth it, I began to live in a different land.

    Welcome to my garden. It is the product of much work, love and care. It began with helping hands, and has been tended, redesigned and evolved into my own loving work of art. The beauty represents my new life. The gratitude I feel for living, and for tending God’s creation with reverence and awe.

    I dwell in a paradise on earth of our own making – I was given the raw materials: tools, people, a chisel, and sculpted this from the earth. God provided all the trees and bushes and flowers. I planted and pulled weeds, stared, rearranged, and watered a lot.

    And now I feel that I am a new creation as well. God planted me, and he worked a miracle in me, to turn what was dying into something new and beautiful. Something kind, gentle and soft; and also, strong, majestic and lasting.

    Thank you God for sharing your garden with me. I hope I have done you proud. I feel overwhelming gratitude for the life bestowed onto me, and for the work I do. Thank you. And thank you for the loved ones who have loved me along, and sculpted, along with you, my character into something closer to you. Amen.

    If you are in need of a new garden, a new lease on life, begin by asking for God’s help. He will either send you people, tools, or the will to decide to do things differently yourself. Whatever way you go, begin now. And each day, each season, you will see where you are grow into where you want to go!

  • BOOK OF MIRACLES,  LIFE

    Day 11 Tell the Truth

    From A Daily Book of Miracles by Krista M. Moore

    Daily Miracle Message

    Coming into your light is about being who you are as a part of God’s family. In order to do that we must tell the truth. It can be hard to speak the truth sometimes. We are afraid of hurting people’s feelings, of rubbing people the wrong way. But when we tell the truth with kindness, from our hearts, we cannot truly hurt anyone. We are coming from a clean feeling, and it is freeing.

    Daily Miracle Practice

    Begin with yourself. Go into a quiet place and get closer to God, to that quiet still place where you know who you are. It is not easy to hear yourself when other people are speaking!

    Take a deep breath and release any tension down through the bottoms of your feet. Get connected to the ground. Then breathe again, and again, deeper each time. Until you begin to feel a a little lighter, a release and a calm… Breathe deeply and feel into your vibration, into your heart. What are you feeling right now?  

    Be honest with yourself first. You can begin by asking yourself good questions: Am I being who I want to be right now? Am I being honest with myself, or am I doing or saying what others want to hear? 

    Give yourself some space. Stay in your own energy long enough to get comfortable being who you are. Then you can learn to express that gift to others in a way that does not cut them off, but clears the way. By being honest with yourself first, you will feel more clear and grounded. Then you can decide what you most want to express. Before you decide to express it, you may want to ask yourself, What is important for me to say right now? Is this the deeper truth, or just a temporary feeling, an emotion that is surfacing that needs my attention and healing?

    Another thing to ask is, do I really need to express it to this person right now? Or can I deal with it on my own, or with a friend? Perhaps you have a kind listener who can hear your feelings and hold space? 

    There are many ways to express, and many ways to listen. Find yours. You could take a walk in nature communing with God and the angels, or listen to classical or uplifting music, or draw or paint, or write it all down. Maybe writing a poem is how you find the truth and come to express who you are. Be creative. It doesn’t have to be a big drama! Unless you want it to be. Then make it great. Make it your own. Do it with grace. Do it with style.

    Daily Miracle Prayer

    Dear God, help me to express my self truly. Is this true for me or is this someone else’s energy? Help me to discern what I feel right now. Clear my heart and mind and help me express my truth with clarity, wisdom and Love. 

    Daily Miracle Blessing

    I am here for you. You can speak to me anytime. You do not have to wait untiil you have it all figured out. Come to me first. I will clear the way. I will you speak the truth with love.