LIFE

Making life better through light, joy and well-being. Slices of life. Krista's journey.

  • Evening star
    LIFE,  SPIRITUALITY

    Finding Hope in An Evening Star

    A single star shimmers in the glow out my window during evening meditation, perfectly placed by an invisible hand.

    I dwell inside, praying and meditating while fellow house-dwellers make distant sounds from their music and TVs, during the quarantine.

    I wonder why I never noticed that star before? I have sat here many times, but usually reading with the lights on. Tonight I am practicing abstaining from TV, feeling more and more of my body, in this place and time, at this unprecedented time in history.

    COVID 19 spreads quickly and governments react daily with more restrictions, death counts. It doesn’t feel real, in this country, but it is here just as much as anywhere else. I do this meditation for the hope I feel, to contribute something.

    I return to my breathing, feeling the blood moving through me so fast, humming, a marvel. The Spirit embodies the breath, or the breath, the body. It moves quickly, imperceptively. To find it you have to slow down, stay with it. The mind finds the star again.

    I want to believe the star means something. That it has a message for me.

    I feel convicted that I need to stop making more of this than it is. And start noticing things like my breath. Like the invisible hand, the imperceptible.

    But I can’t stop noticing the beauty all around me!

    I’ve already lost the star in my study of it, talking about it! When I first noticed it, it was an instant aha! Beauty. Appreciation. No content. No analysis. Just the star and me. When I put words to it, it lost its mystery. Its beauty.

    I return to the star. And breathe. Can I just sit and be with the star?

    I can’t do it!!

    In my mal-adjusted, socially addicted, reactive nature, I cannot cope without some kind of interactivity – some kind of interpretation, conversation, with myself, with you, and the ineffable. Maybe this is my reality!

    I am a human being. I contemplate such things. Meaning. Starlight. Beauty. Existence. Time. My spiritual practice takes me into the depths. It is never a silence for me, but an ongoing conversation, a gallery! I cannot stop moving – my heart, my feelings, my breath. I want to know more, experience more, express all I see! All I can be!

    The star has shifted. It seems to have fallen in the sky outside my window. I am worried that I have “talked” this whole time, and might lose the star! But I haven’t lost the star. Because the star means something to me. And who knows that that star is not contemplating me?!

    My love of life includes all of creation as I gaze inwardly and outwardly – to me, they are all connected. My inner vision comes from what I see, and what I cannot see. I am stirred by God’s invisible hand guiding me: Look, see! Here I am, in the mystery of things.

    P.S. I couldn’t resist getting a Star Finder app and found my star in the constellation of Aries. Like I child I will never give up hope for humanity or grow tired of learning and discovering!

  • BOOK OF MIRACLES,  LIFE

    How to Do What You Love

    Finding Your Mission. Discovering Your Passion. Making Changes Over Time. by Krista Marie Moore

    Daily Miracle Message

    Are you doing what you love yet? Do you feel like you have hope in the morning, meaning throughout the day, and gratitude at night? Do you rise up with purpose and feel a longing to keep going, exploring and doing all that you love?

    This may seem impossible, a fantasy even, but I am here to tell you that it is possible! I am doing what I love, thank God (you can read more about that in How Your Mission Can Change Everything). However, it has been a process, not an all-of-a-sudden proposition. So don’t worry. You can figure this out. I have experienced many transitions over the last 20 years, all for the better, and slowly over time, my life has become absolutely in line with my true dreams and goals. And I’m still learning and growing! I never want that to stop.

    That is what it can feel like when you do what you love. You don’t mind the slow-downs, hiccups, detours, dead ends. Eventually, you find your way around again, doing what you love. As long as you are pointed in the right direction, and keep putting gas in the tank, you will find more ways to explore each avenue of expression, each eager dovetail into phenomenal vistas that send your stomach swirling in loop-dee-loops. It is worth the price of admission.

    What will it take to do what you love? You may have a family member or a partner to help. Or a side job, or a very slow transition time from your “normal” career. Or life may force you into a new positive change (through job loss, relocation or death of a loved one). Or you may do what you love on weekends, or on very long vacations from which you do not wish to return, or you may have an exit plan. Whatever way you decide to take, keep pointing in the right direction.

    And what if you do not know what you love? It may not be obvious, or it may be right in front of your nose. There is some flickering flame of passion within you, some deep down desire. Listen to it. Explore it. Ask questions. Pretend that anything is possible. And then take the first step. It could be so micro – minuscule you hardly even notice. But it is a start! Like drawing a picture, or writing a note to yourself. Just keep going! And soon, you will be counting the days till your next workday, rather than your next vacation day. True work is play!

    Doing what you love feeds your soul, elevates your consciousness, and often causes you to give love and service to others in a way that feels “effortless”. It could be something so natural to you you think it’s a sin to be paid for it. Like a hobby you’ve been stuffing in the closet, or think your “okay” at, but other people think you’re amazing.

    Imagine your life differently. Doing what you love. Imagine that God wants you to be happy. Doing what you love. Imagine everything is possible. Doing what you love. And then, and only then, start living that way.

    Daily Miracle Prayer

     Dear God, help me remember what I love to do, what brings me joy and happiness, fulfillment and abundance. I am willing to change my outlook. I am willing to make room in my life for more of what I love. Make me accountable. Send me helpers to push me toward my dreams. Make them come true. Thank you, God. Amen.

    Daily Miracle Blessing

    Make room for Me. And I will make room for your deepest dreams. Pray to Me, and I will counsel you on what to do. Do not falter. Do not despair. There is a rainbow waiting for you. Give me your dreams and I will cause great miracles to bring those dreams to life!

  • krista-emmanuel-smiling
    LIFE,  SPIRITUALITY

    How God Worked A Miracle In My Soul

    The Miracle of Wanting Less and Loving More

    God has changed me profoundly. I know this because my will is not my own. Although I still make choices, I do things more and more because it is the right thing to do. Either I have grown up, or God has worked a miracle on my soul.

    In my old world, I used to call my work transformational. I accredited a lot of the pain and gain to myself, to my “process.” The self-help movement that I espoused brought me through many storms and heart-aches. I looked to myself both as cause and effect in some ways. Though I believed in God, I wasn’t sure if I was good enough for him. I would make strides, make changes, take big leaps, and fall big falls. I was courageous, but courage is not the same as wisdom.

    In my new world, I’m walking across a bridge, from the land where I once played and performed on many stages – literally and figuratively, to a new land where God is guiding the way, where I don’t always play a significant role. Still, I feel the best I have ever felt, doing what I love behind the scenes.

    I used to get excited by a new “gig,” the praise of a co-worker or boss, an honour at school, or a day off. Now I feel like a secret Santa on commission to make someone feel better. I stop to ask someone how they are, to console someone whose father is dying, to make a new friend, to help with the unpopular tasks of cleaning a kitchen or microwave, to attend a meeting for a social cause.

    These little acts of kindness and care bring great rewards. They aren’t external; they’re internal. Truthfully, they’re not about me at all! They come from feeling the love from others, a simple smile or thank you, and sometimes nothing at all. Just a quiet prayer to God that “all is well.”

    A quiet ride home contemplating the blessings of that day brings joy to my heart and contentment to my soul that I hadn’t experienced until I first surrendered as I walked across that bridge to my new home.

    Joy and laughter come from a heart fulfilled, filled with moments of care and carefree play with children or my dog.

    I am camping out in the land of God. He fills every place with his essence; his whispers to be patient; his nudge to smile; to sing, and to send our love into the world.

    I didn’t do this myself. I didn’t transform by an act of will or self-knowledge. God changed me and continues to mould me in a way that I can still be who I am, without all the pain and suffering. I am working for a new cause, one that is not my own.

    The rewards are higher than any prize. As God works on me, I work with God. We make a great team. He causes me to love; I am one small spark, a twinkle in his eye. I get to light up the dark spaces and bring others along for the ride.

    God has worked a miracle in my soul. If he can do it for me, he can do it for you as well.

  • Emmanuel
    LIFE,  SPIRITUALITY

    How Your Mission Can Change Everything

    Have you ever found yourself going through life, everything seems hunky-dory, but you are feeling an urgent desire for change? A desire to know more? To do more? To change everything?!

    This could be a call. For example, I was previously working in the business world, commuting every day, for ten years, when I got the urge to change my life and become an actor. Then eight years after that, my spiritual path opened up and I began teaching workshops, yoga and retreats. Now, I’m becoming a minister. Who would have thought it?

    In a couple of weeks, I enter a new phase in my journey: entering a Master of Divinity program at the University of Toronto (Emmanuel College). I can hardly believe that I will be at a seminary, like many young men before me (women were not admitted until the mid60s). As I studied the pictures on the walls of Emmanuel College, Victoria University in the University of Toronto, I felt a kinship, and also an awareness that this was a privilege, a rarity, not just because I’m a woman, but because few people ever choose this path. And I get to do it while still having a somewhat “normal” life, commuting three days a week, doing homework, reading, writing, dialoguing, communing.

    Emmanuel private prayer room

    I’m on a mission: Jesus and the angels pushed me to work with people and heal them. Before this decision, I worked as a Spiritual Director / Healer and Direct Channel of the divine. I had my apprehensions, worries, as my spiritual gifts became a part of who I am. I even went to a Jesuit retreat with Catholic sisters and priests, to make sure I was “OK” with all of this. I am. One priest said, “I’ve never met anyone like you.” He validated my gifts are from God and only God decides “Who, when, where and for how long.” That gave me some peace.

    mandela
    Manresa Retreat, Pickering Ont.

    So what does that mean? It means I have work to do. The feeling of having a mission isn’t just my imagination or wishful thinking. I have to take it to the limit. Beyond what I’m comfortable with, what makes sense, what I want. And embrace the wild unknown – the spiritual landscape of many “others”: people of different backgrounds, faith traditions, experiences. Not only will I learn a lot from them, but I will also be moved to offer what I have – my gifts, services when the time comes, and the unexpected. As they say, “God had other plans.”

    My mission is simple: to heal others through the grace of God, under the direction of Christ/Jesus. It includes using my healing gifts, messages and psalms (and sometimes making a fool of myself for God). I can’t be comfortable. I have to do what is in me to do, and give what God gives me so others can discover their gifts, too.

    emmanuel chapel
    Emmanuel College chapel

    Yes, I’m on a mission. And only God knows who, where, when and for how long. I’m grateful he’s starting me at Emmanuel.

    You may be wondering what your mission is? To discover your own spiritual gifts and mission, see How To Do What You Love.

    What is your mission? Please share your comments or ask a question below. Much Love!

  • Sheep Grazing
    BOOK OF MIRACLES,  LIFE,  SPIRITUALITY,  TRAVEL

    How God Find Us When We are Lost

    God never gives up on you. A Daily Book of Miracles, by Krista Marie Moore. Photo credit: Sheep Grazing on Camino, in Galacia, Spain, Krista Moore 2019

    Good Shepherd keep me safe from harm, teach me where to go.  Do not tarry too long, but find me and bring me Home.

    Imagine a beautiful cottage standing on the Northern shore of a remote place, with waves crashing in the distance, and sheep grazing in the fields along the trail toward the shore.

    A gentle boy named David, who is singing and pulling his tunic over his head, picks up his staff to go out for the day to check on his sheep.

    All of his sheep are grazing except one. He counts and counts and still there is one missing. He goes down the lane and over the hill to see where the other has gone. He looks back to make sure the other sheep do not follow him or roam. They are busy grazing and do not even look up. 

    David finds the lost sheep which has cut its leg hopping over a sharp stone. He wraps it up with a torn piece of his tunic cloth and frees the trembling lamb from his predicament. He picks the young wanderer up and carries him back to the others. They all gather around him with busy noses pressing in to welcome back their lost brother,  who has returned home.

    This little sheep is like us when we wander outside of our natural boundary when we try to do things our own way. One of God’s shepherds, Jesus, comes to find us and bring us home.  All we have to do is call and He will hear us and send a search and rescue party out.

    Whatever the circumstance, whatever the predicament, He will succeed in His mission to restore us Home. God can bring us back to ourselves, back on the path, restore our hope, our life, our purpose. He can even reverse our mistakes and make things right again. Don’t worry. Just ask God for help with anything. You are never far from his warm embrace.

    Do not hesitate to call on God or Jesus for help if you feel lost. Let go of your fears and ask, even if it is a helpless cry in the dark. God will hear you and return you where you need to be.

    Daily Miracle Prayer

    God, please find me, I am lost. I have wandered too far off the path. I don’t know which way to go. I am so wounded and I cannot walk alone. Lift me up and take me where I need to be. Amen.

    Daily Miracle Blessing

    Call on me and I will come to you. I will rescue you. I never give up on you. You are my beloved daughter/son. You are never far from Home!

    “I am the good shepherd; I know my sheep and my sheep know me – just as the Father knows me and I know the Father – and I lay down my life for the sheep” (John 10:14-15 NIV)

  • Angel in the Light
    BOOK OF MIRACLES,  LIFE

    How to Heal Your Heart

    An excerpt from Krista’s Daily Book of Miracles, a book in progress, Copyright 2019-2020 Krista Marie Moore. Photo Credit: Private. 2019

    Many of us walk around in the world wearing a mask over our heart. Maybe we don’t even know we are wearing it. We have grown so used to trying to hold it together, to be strong for others. But there comes a time when we have to let it down and feel our own heart, feel our own soul. 

    What is really going on? How do I feel right now? What am I forgetting to remember in this moment? What do I feel in my heart right now?

    After a trauma, or a particular period of difficulty, we can get used to the pain. We can get used to suffering. We don’t even know we’re doing it, but we begin to hide it, even from ourselves. It is too difficult to look there again, to admit how we feel, when we are coping, just trying to get through. 

    It may seem on the outside that everything looks OK, but on the inside something doesn’t feel right. You may feel actual pain in your heart area, or it may just be like a pressure, a sadness, or a tension. Whatever you are feeling, go there. Go deep inside and feel the sadness, feel the pain, feel the excitement. Whatever you are feeling. Allow it.

    Many of us have been taught to disobey our own heart. We have been taught to obey others: our bosses, our parents, our spouses. We have learned to keep control of our emotions and push them down, as far down as possible, which leads to disease, tension, disability and even accidents. Sometimes life causes us to wake up through something that will catch our attention, make us feel again. It may be highly disagreeable, even more painful than the original feeling, but it gets our attention, and then we have a choice.

    Are you going to take this opportunity to heal this pain, or are you going to just push through? 

    You can’t push yourself forever. At some point, you’re going to need to rest. You’re going to need to feel. Those emotions will come back, they will find you.

    Dont’ be afraid of your feelings, of your emotions. They are there to guide you. If you are upset, admit that you are upset. Don’t push it down. Find a way to talk about it. If you are scared, be scared. Don’t pretend you are happy. Happiness will come only when you face your fears and find a way to transform, not pushing them away or denying.

    Daily Miracle Practice

    Feel your heart. What is inside? What is it saying to you? Is there someone you need to talk to? Are you lonely or sad? Do you need someone to lean on? Do you need a guide? 

    Let yourself feel. Then ask for what you need. 

    Our hearts grow bigger and stronger when we listen to their needs. 

    Go deep inside, and then find the answer. It will come to you.

    Daily Miracle Prayer

    Dear God, I am afraid of how I feel. I don’t know what to do about it. I feel like I will not be able to handle it. I’m afraid that others will not be able to handle it! Please give me the courage to accept how I feel and do something about it. Help me feel my heart and learn to express it. Let it be my friend and guide. Thank you. Amen.

    Daily Miracle Blessing

    There is a beautiful soul in you. A beautiful heart that has been wounded with time. Let me hold it in my hands and heal you. Let me help you release those feelings and judgements about yourself, and feel what it feels like to be loved. 

  • woman rising
    BOOK OF MIRACLES,  LIFE,  SPIRITUALITY

    How to Be Loved For Who You Are

    “Love Me As I Am”, Krista’s Daily Book of Miracles, 2019 Krista Marie Moore

    The human heart is so fragile. With a single touch, we can melt like butter, and with a careless word we can easily shatter.  We can even feel differently from one moment to another. Our hearts can seem frail, and yet are very powerful.

    Part of showing up with others is just being yourself. When you’re raw, feel you’ve made a mistake, or have gone through something difficult, it can feel like being peeled from the inside out. It takes courage to show up as you are. And it takes a lot of love to meet someone where they are. 

    When there is chaos or confusion when you don’t look your best when you feel like crying instead of celebrating, it’s time to get cozy with one or two good friends. To take the masks off and let it all out. Holding that space for someone else can be a challenge, but with love, it feels like a mother nurturing a child. To be in that space being held is even harder if we are not used to it; if we are used to being in charge of the one who helps. To be vulnerable, to not feel on top of things, to not know how we are going to make it, or what is going to happen, can be a very scary place. But with Love, anything is possible.

    I have been in that space of love for someone else, and I have also been that person being held with the eyes of love. When two or more people gather, there is a great power. It can feel like the world is coming to an end, and at the same time, like it’s just beginning. Our vulnerability makes us stronger. Our tears can heal us if we let them. Our friends can be there for us if we are willing to be seen in a state of uncertainty or need.

    God is like that too. We may think “Oh, I’ve really screwed up this time!” or doubt that He even exists at all. But in those vulnerable moments is when the true generosity of God is known. Through our tears, real tenderness in our hearts is grown. We can begin to feel safe, that we are loveable, and that we will always have His Love.

    Daily Miracle Prayer

    God, I don’t know where I’m going. I feel so out of control. I feel so vulnerable, so raw. I need you now more than ever. Please show me your Love.  Please love me as I am. Amen.

    Daily Miracle Blessing

    You are beautiful. I hold you in my arms. I will never leave you. Come to me as you are. I love you unconditionally. Be who you are!

  • LIFE

    Experiencing Overwhelming Gratitude

    Is it possible to transform your life, attitude and understanding in such a way as to feel overwhelming gratitude?

    This is what has happened to me. After trying to forcibly change my circumstances for years and finding myself at the same point as I began, I realized God was trying to awaken me – not to reject the life I had, but to embrace it, feed it, nurture it and love it.

    Many years ago I inherited a garden. But I was not in any way a gardener. In fact, I was the most neglectful and unappreciative person imaginable. I justified this by saying I was not the gardening type. I had other plans. I was busy inventing more important things to do and dream of. My own garden took the wrap and much of it did not survive.

    After suffering from depression and seeing the misery I had inflicted on my garden as the perfect mirror for my attitude about life, I decided to get some help – other gardeners who could help me tend to it, and they taught me so much. At first, I resented the work and joked around about it like it didn’t matter. But as I saw it transform, and as I learned that it was not as hard as I thought – and that even when it was hard it was soooo worth it, I began to live in a different land.

    Welcome to my garden. It is the product of much work, love and care. It began with helping hands and has been tended, redesigned and evolved into my own loving work of art. Beauty represents my new life. The gratitude I feel for living, and for tending God’s creation with reverence and awe.

    I dwell in a paradise on earth of our own making – I was given the raw materials: tools, people, a chisel, and sculpted this from the earth. God provided all the trees and bushes and flowers. I planted and pulled weeds, stared, rearranged, and watered a lot.

    And now I feel that I am a new creation as well. God planted me, and he worked a miracle in me, to turn what was dying into something new and beautiful. Something kind, gentle and soft; and also, strong, majestic and lasting.

    Thank you, God, for sharing your garden with me. I hope I have done you proud. I feel overwhelming gratitude for the life bestowed onto me, and for the work I do. Thank you. And thank you for the loved ones who have loved me along, and sculpted, along with you, my character into something closer to you. Amen.

    If you are in need of a new garden, a new lease on life, begin by asking for God’s help. He will either send you people, tools, or the will to decide to do things differently yourself. Whatever way you go, begin now. And each day, each season, you will see where you are growing into where you want to go!

  • BOOK OF MIRACLES,  LIFE

    How to Tell the Truth

    “Tell the Truth” From A Daily Book of Miracles by Krista M. Moore

    Daily Miracle Message

    Coming into your light is about being honest with yourself, others and God. In order to do that we must tell the truth. It can be hard to speak the truth sometimes. We are afraid of hurting people’s feelings, of rubbing people the wrong way. But when we tell the truth with kindness, from our hearts, we cannot truly hurt anyone. We are coming from a clean feeling, and it is freeing.

    Daily Miracle Practice

    Begin with yourself. Go into a quiet place and get closer to God, to that quiet still place where you know who you are. It is not easy to hear yourself when other people are speaking!

    Take a deep breath and release any tension down through the bottoms of your feet. Get connected to the ground. Then breathe again, and again, deeper each time. Until you begin to feel a a little lighter, a release and a calm… Breathe deeply and feel into your vibration, into your heart. What are you feeling right now?  

    Be honest with yourself first. You can begin by asking yourself good questions: Am I being who I want to be right now? Am I being honest with myself, or am I doing or saying what others want to hear? 

    Give yourself some space. Stay in your own energy long enough to get comfortable being who you are. Then you can learn to express that gift to others in a way that does not cut them off, but clears the way. By being honest with yourself first, you will feel more clear and grounded. Then you can decide what you most want to express. Before you decide to express it, you may want to ask yourself, What is important for me to say right now? Is this the deeper truth, or just a temporary feeling, an emotion that is surfacing that needs my attention and healing?

    Another thing to ask is, do I really need to express it to this person right now? Or can I deal with it on my own, or with a friend? Perhaps you have a kind listener who can hear your feelings and hold space? 

    There are many ways to express, and many ways to listen. Find yours. You could take a walk in nature communing with God and the angels, or listen to classical or uplifting music, or draw or paint, or write it all down. Maybe writing a poem is how you find the truth and come to express who you are. Be creative. It doesn’t have to be a big drama! Unless you want it to be. Then make it great. Make it your own. Do it with grace. Do it with style.

    Daily Miracle Prayer

    Dear God, help me to express my self truly. Is this true for me or is this someone else’s energy? Help me to discern what I feel right now. Clear my heart and mind and help me express my truth with clarity, wisdom and Love. 

    Daily Miracle Blessing

    I am here for you. You can speak to me anytime. You do not have to wait untiil you have it all figured out. Come to me first. I will clear the way. I will you speak the truth with love.

  • BOOK OF MIRACLES,  LIFE,  SPIRITUALITY

    Starting All Over

    “Starting All Over”, A Daily Book of Miracles, by Krista M. Moore

    Daily Miracle Message

    Starting all over isn’t easy. No matter what has happened to change your world, know that you will find your way forward. 

    In my own life, I saw change come in many forms and had to start all over. As a child, we moved a lot. I went from school to school. Growing up in a smaller town, it wasn’t easy to make friends when you are the new kid. Kids pick on you. When you’re an adult and have to change jobs, or go through a divorce, or go back to school later in life, it may feel like you’re starting all over again. In some ways this is good, and in other ways, it can feel overwhelming. Especially if your change involves death. It can seem like the end of the world for a very long time…

    One thing I do see now, God has gotten me through everything in my life. I learned so much from each transition. Starting all over in my late 20’s in a brand new city as a single mother, I grew muscles I didn’t know I had; I gained skills of compassion and depth and insight that came with experience and the ability to respond to new environments and demands.

    After the devastation of 9/11 and losing two loved ones within a week of each other, I was able to rebuild my world, and turn inward; decide what kind of world I wanted to create. I eventually got out of the corporate job I held for 10 years, and expanded my family, to live my creative dreams while raising my own kids. And I got to travel the world and live on my own terms. From cocoon to butterfly, mother’s womb to a whole new world, I developed the ability to embrace the new and love life again.

    I did this through a lot of prayer, reflection, tears, fears, letting go, and finally making choices that felt like the right thing to do. And eventually, those changes, sometimes big, sometimes small, led to the most amazing and fruitful life, a life I could not see until those changes happened to me.

    Starting all over was a gift. I didn’t always ask for it, but God gave me the strength to go forward and showed me new possibilities. And now I am so grateful I took the leaps into the dark and found the Light I was truly needing, shining my way into the most beautiful life.

    Daily Miracle Prayer

    Dear God, please carry me through this change and help me to start all over again. I don’t know how! I feel overwhelmed, scared even. I can’t see what the future holds, but I know you are with me. Amen.

    Daily Miracle Blessing

    I am with you on this journey. What you cannot see, I see. What you do not know, I know. Take a walk with me. I will show you the way forward in my Light.