While I was lamenting, God answered my prayer.
I am burning to recite you, repeat you, praise you. I am eager to learn from you, see you, feel you, and share you. Come to me, oh Lord, the one true One, the One of All. No one is like you, no other voice, though you shatter our illusions endlessly with your riddles. Barricades block your knowledge because people are talking, arguing about who you are – no, what you are, or what you said or did not say, so long ago. But what do you say now? And with whom do you walk? Who is walking with you now? Is anybody listening anymore?
You must be a lonely God, for the world is in confusion, as it always has been. But so much worse from our perspective, because we see the history and the present, and we seem to think we can tell the future, too! Deliver us, oh Lord, from our fantasies of what we think is best, what we think we know, and what we are afraid of. Let us know what you see, what you know, what you will allow, and what you will not. What are the boundaries of your Love, Lord, your patience?
It must be cold where you are, so far from the light of the world that you left here. This distant hum of your presence seems like an echo from another time and place – we keep reminiscing, dreaming even, repeating, but we don’t know anymore. We have lost connection. We are searching in the wrong places. We are repeating phrases. We don’t know how to call you. To listen. To be silent.
But we are still asking. At least I am. Maybe I am a lonely prophet. A lonely teacher. A remote speaker. I have no phrases, I don’t know any that I could recite. Except for the Lord’s Prayer. I only converse with you day and night. I hear only myself at times, and feel your silent presence, your smile, your humour, your patience, and your anger. Only you are justified, I am not. My passion is selfish; it sees no winners. Your anger knows the truth, and likes it. It does not tolerate mass hysteria, ignorance, lust, games, politics. What is your politics except for forgiveness? And justice? Our world knows no truth, that is yours. We think we know, but we do not.
Now I am speaking again. I must be silent.
Now I am writing, I must be waiting.
Surely you will break open, and create a deluge, not of suffering but of sense. Of recompense. Of presence. Your voice will be heard. Justice will be given. Light will come again. And again. And again. World without end.
Ah, phrases. They are beautiful, comforting, they remind me of you. They lull me to sleep when I am stirring and restless. They awaken me when I am dull and fruitless. Your mind gives me light to live by, a friend to my soul. I am never alone in your presence. And I am never not in your presence. You are about me and knocking on my door. You reside in my heart, a soft cupboard where I keep precious ingredients that will not spoil. I access you regularly. You are salt and green oil. My roof is your head under which I lay down. I cast off all cares in your smell. Your incense burns brightly in my soul. It never goes out – the wick does not bend, the smoke fills me with delight. I skip when I should be shrinking in fear; I feel your weight upon my hand, for you are beside me. My steps echo your thoughts, and the branches spill out your seed everywhere. There is nothing I cannot glimpse your majesty. My breath touches the tip of the garden and falls back to the ocean, it swells to the sky and dips down like a sea bird. I am ocean. You are sky. We blend well together. One day I will rise to meet you, lay like an unending cloud, or dissipate and melt before the sea-born sky. Licking away every last pebble from my eye. It has been so long since I have seen you eye to eye. The dark thunder split the sky and caused me to fold into darkness, holding myself hostage in sleeping and wilderness. I walked 10,000 miles, I slept under a rock, and a sea bird lifted the crumbs from my hands and fed me personally.
Elijah was sleeping with me, I was dreaming of him, as I lay there, a traveller like him, frightened by my own darkness and forgetfulness.
Awaken! The boat is ready. Come sailing. Why are you living like a traveller, like an alien? Why are you sleeping under a rock when God gave you the sky? And land creatures to roam on. Your bones are breaking under the thick of your mind. Release them, the prisoners you held captive. Those little minions you gave jobs and won’t let go: I must run, I must take, I must bury, I must fake. Let them go!
I break all the contracts you have made before the end of time. You have not done well for yourselves down there all alone. You really have punished yourselves remarkably. It doesn’t matter what your father’s father’s father did. Come back to me, your true Father. Come back to your Father’s house, ascend the stairs, it has been too long. You have grown old in waiting and forgetfulness. I will place my hand on your shoulder, kiss your cheek and cry, weep. It has been too long. Surely, you have not wanted to be away from me for this long?
“The Sound of the Night Bugs”, mystical poetry and psalms, by Krista Marie Moore.
Daily Miracle Message
Do you ever marvel at the sound of the sky? At the smell of the fog that lays over the air at night? The crickets singing their night song, the whir of the fan, the whistle of friends walking by? All whirs beside us and around us and beneath us, our minds catching little fragments of thought, precious moments of time…
The sound of the night bugs as I lay in bed, fills my heart with calm. What can go wrong in a world where little creatures smaller than my hand tuck me in at night with their song? The hum of my computer, the dim of the light, the reflection in the mirror, the dog breathing a sigh. All lay quiet in the midst of great activity. “Stillness is anything but still”, I recall a friend saying.
In the calm, and in the sounds, I find my gentle mind praying. My fingers move the keyboard, and my mouth mouths the words. My heart speaks but nobody hears. I am lit up though it is dark outside.
A time of rest is a time of healing. To understand the depths, one must listen and be quiet. Do not even think you know how to say it. It is a wordless song that plays once, and only you can hear it.
There is nothing more beautiful than God’s tiniest creatures as my friends. My mother thinks I’m crazy for not killing spiders. They spin their webs, shining in the sun, or hidden in corners. The symmetry and artwork are astonishing. Not a peep is ever heard.
The cat sleeps. The birds whistle. And the deer nestles in a bur-rough in the thick of the wood. The fish swims upside down. The flick of the tail, like water, rushes in the twinkling night as I breathe.
Nothing can keep me from saying my love of this sweet song playing, always underground. It takes an artist, a spiritual realist, a hypnotist, a musician, a player, to really feel what I am saying.
Nothing, nothing can stop this beautiful sound.
Daily Miracle Prayer
Dear God, let me notice the beauty in everything, from the biggest cloud going by to the tiniest flee. Let me see me, as I do your majesty. In all things, let me hear your song, giving me Light, peace and calm. Amen.
Daily Miracle Blessing
Sweet, sweet child, I hear your song. I hear your soul calling to me. And I am in love with you, your beauty and your Light, your wisdom and your majesty too, as a reflection of Me and all that I create.